Unexpected!!!

Today my mum told me that our foreign worker will not be working anymore and i was numb to hear that. I know that we cannot rely forever on them but still...its like without them me and my sister will have to work really hard from now on. Its gonna be totally different and its gonna be damn hard. I hope i can deal with this. Maybe God has some secret message from me by doing all this. Its really so sudden! I almost cannot believe it but its really cannot be avoid cos they need to go back to their family to settle their own problems there. Many things had happen there that they don't even know...its hard for them too, I can see that...

After all this while, it really had happen...and i guess this is what all of us fear of. Everything gonna be slow now and its end of the year...many work to be done...but human resource are so few. I hope we can get to go through this...its not like we never been to this hard before but maybe cos we already begin to get used to the easy life and to back on track its so...suffering...>.<

Sometimes i feel like wanna fly away from here...waiting for that someone to take me away but i know its not going to be easy and i got to wait for so long...No matter what i will wait for him and love him as long as i can. I know that our relationship is going to be harder then other people cos our challenges are mainly harder then others but i know we can go through this and we will never regret. Hari raya is gonna end tomorrow and he gonna starts school by then. A lot of things in my mind now whether is missing him or planning things for him to come back for the next visit, I don't know...but all i know is i'm thinking of him, about him...everything...I hope he knows that too...that I've been missing him badly ever since i come back from KL which is to his house.

I cannot deny how much freedom i feel being there sometimes that helps me to release some stress and being pampered there...I guess its every girls dream to be pampered by her love ones xD I wonder isit guy's nature to being selfish? Or isit human nature? Maybe you who read my blog will give me that answer...Tell me what do u guys think? For me i do agree that somehow guys are much more selfish then girls...but it still depends...